so I caught myself suddenly doing some pretty cold-hearted things that I knew were wrong which was why I did them
of course I went into an argument I didn't belong in and I began mocking people and then purposefully trolled someone with a very long reply who asked me why I did that
and then I begin mocking those same people behind their backs
but finally I realized what I did and so I begged for punishment, and... dunno if justice will be served, but I kinda feel like Tamara now where in that one thread, she was abusing Verdalie because Verd ate her sandwich because one of Tamara's 'friends' wanted her to do that but then Tamara felt like total trash afterwards
no, no, it's alright, these things happen and I sorta knew it'd come and bite me eventually. we're all sinners here, but there's something wrong if you never get punished for your actions, because if you didn't how can you ever learn from your mistakes? you don't. it feels sorta weird for me that I did all this bad stuff and never got punished once, and I've considered in the past asking why but I never did. I know that I'm a great person and I probably deserve the world and all but if that goes to my head, I'll never be stopped! it's like WWII; Hitler could've been stopped way sooner but the Allies let him have his way before it was too late. don't feed the trolls! without a halter, the beast could go on to destroy more than its owner's enemies!
well. okay. I'll confess. it may sound stupid but lately I've felt really bored almost to the point of depression. I thought that quarantine wouldn't affect me but it turns out... it is. it's kind of just,, rotting me mentally y'know? I'm trying to cope, but nothing's... working. and I'm anxious. all the time. depressed and anxious and bored and unnmotivated. I've tried taking naps, having an extra snack, drawing. nothing's. working. I don't want to feel like I've slipped into a hole, but... yeah.
I get it, and I understand sometimes you gotta be punished to learn.
Aww man buddy... I know how that feels and I know this quarentine is boring depressing and a lot of things but I wanna try to be here for you. I've been working so hard on Montey because I don't wanna have a world anymore that although we roleplay belongs to someone else. I want us to know that in this roleplay we created the story the characters and the world. But if it makes you feel better we can try to roleplay Chocorune. We can do this ):)
I've gotten pinched pretty hard last night. not literally, but I had another dream-- it was two stereotypical battles against two stererotypical bad guys. but the second one really got me. he was thrown off a cliff but the hero went and saved him. saved him! of course mr. villain had no idea why he was saved until a small little voice told the two to stand together on the edge of the cliff and look down. and down there, at the bottom, were hundreds of happy people doing their daily business. a beautiful scene. the two knew right then and there that they shouldn't have been fighting each other in the first place.
I believe they eventually got married lmao
maybe, but I don't know if I want to roleplay right now.
He's like that because remember, he's a kid he doesn't get why Verdalie did what she did and saw her as a friend, especially how she gave her all to be with Rulsee. Also remember how he's a bit anxious now that his friends are being sent to Jevil, they won't stand a chance and he doesn't want to waste precious time on bickering bitterly when they can find a way to save them
so you remember Master Soulseeker Fatalis? the dragon with power so immense, he could destroy the world within minutes if he wanted to, but also is capable of giving mere ideas and thoughts a physical form?
well. there's a really good theory that all of the Darkners are just toys and games, right? even the Rabbicks, they're just dust bunnies.
but what about the Suits? where do they come from? they're just cards, but why are the Diamonds snakes? why do the Spades resemble humans? why are the Clubs cats? and why are the Hearts these octopus-like creatures?
the answer lies in MSF (Master Soulseeker Fatalis). he created them in his image.
of course this may sound like nonsense. but trust me, once I go into detail it'll all fit together... like the pieces of a puzzle.
let's begin with the Diamonds. the King of Diamonds has four arms. guess who else has four arms? Master Soulseeker Fatalis. snakes are reptiles, and so are dragons-- and dragons are also infamous for their greed, and therefore so are the Diamonds. but why aren't the Diamonds dragons, you ask? Dalamadur. Dalamadur is an Elder Dragon, and is a snake. with forelimbs. MSF created the Diamonds in his image, and in the image of Dalamadur.
now onto the Spades. their colour palette consists entirely of blue, white and black. guess what? so does MSF! in fact, Fatalis is known as the Black Dragon, and MSF is the highest form of Fatalis. MSF also controls an element known as 'Soul' (will be elaborated on later), which is blue. that explains the blue. and lastly, the white-- a Soulseeker Fatalis needs to possess a White Fatalis in order for their bodies to merge and become the Master Soulseeker Fatalis. that is where the white comes from. the Spades are all bipedal, and Fatalis can convert from quadpedal to bipedal at all. finally, MSF has a 'crown' of horns, and great dark wings. that's the Chaos King's crown and cloak. MSF created the Spades in his own image.
the Clubs, next. you remember how Clover has three eyes on each head? MSF has three eyes in each socket. so, naturally, he gave the Clubs this. but why are their pupils purple instead of blue? well, Odogaron is a nasty little red hellhound with eyes that are pitch black and lavender-coloured pupils. MSF gave the Clubs his own eyes, and the eyes of Odogaron. also, Odogaron and MSF are both quadpedal (only MSF can change between quadpede and bipede); therefore MSF created the Clubs in his image, and in the image of Odogaron.
finally, the Hearts. they share almost no traits with MSF (except for their teeth), so what about them? MSF created them to represent what he does not have. think about it this way-- MSF is heartless. so naturally, he gave them traits that he does not have, except for the heads. this may be very confusing, but allow me to explain. Xeno'jiiva is the adolescent form of Safi'jiiva. Safi'jiiva is the young adult form of Fatalis. so of course it makes sense, if you look at Xeno'jiiva's head-- it's heart-shaped. MSF created the Hearts in the image of himself had he possessed what he does not have.
remember how the torches in the Castle are blue? that's MSF's flame. the blue flame, the flame of Soul.
Soul is a new element and is the strongest natural element ever discovered (not to be confused with SOULs or DETERMINATION) and is almost completely exclusive to the Xeno line (Xeno'jiiva, Safi'jiiva, Fatalis, Soulseeker Fatalis, MSF) with a few exceptions. it's like the Dragon element but powered by bioenergy, life force, and SOUL energy. I won't go into much more detail but yeah
also I found a song and I remixed it and now it reminds me so much of some other song... but I can't place it... bell please help me THERE'S A SONG LIKE THIS AND I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT IT IS BUT IT REMINDS ME OF IT SO MUCH AAA HELP
and I really want Haz to see my project of drawing the different suits as dragons (and all the fancy new more Monster Hunter-y stuff that I give them, too)
I want you to show this to Haz and also tell her these exact words I'm going to say next:
"I'm really excited and proud to show this to you! Your lovely art (even when you draw cursed things, lmao) has really influenced the way that I do art, and your interpretations of designs are really outstanding! I drew this guy as a sort of token of appreciation but also as the beginning of my new project-- starting with the Diamonds (I probably love them as much as you do)-- which I really wanted you to see because I've included a lot of your design interpretations into some of these designs of my own because you've inspired me so much! No, seriously. I love your art, and it's undoubtedly amazing, nobody can change my mind.
This guy's name is Diamonte, by the way. He has two similar but slightly different personalities for each head, and the heads may be referred to as Left and Right."
Wh-what? Me? Influenced someone? No one has ever said that..
That makes me really happy Blue, that's really my goal in art all these years and my dream, to inspire. But I don't get it, what interpretations? Do you mean how I draw Rulsee,Chrys, Verdalie, Susie and everyone else? Or just my art in general? Either way, i'm really flattered because... I guess I always thought all the art I give to everyone didn't matter. I'm glad to know you appreciate mine <3
I'll show this to her no worries!
And I love that dude... You know I love when you use the origin of words to make something new.
so the Mono- in Monomont and Monomonte (the Diamond Queen) means one, and the Di- in Diamonte means two! Monomont means 'one head', Monomonte means 'one head ruler', and Diamonte means 'two head ruler'!
...also the part in quotes you're supposed to directly show to Haz
...I'm really sorry dude but that was actually meant for her...
but it doesn't mean you too haven't inspired me!! please don't take that the wrong way!!!
I mean I barely get to talk to anyone anymore but it's fine, it's your choice after all. sometimes I feel like it was a mistake not quitting entirely now and... well, yeah, I'll see you again anywhere from a week to a year from now, I guess
again sorry it's just that lately I've been feeling really weird and I dunno, I guess my emotions have been sucked out of me
And it's ok to let your feelings out. I get it. I just... Wanted to tell you this because I didn't want to leave you on a hookline.
I'm sorry you feel that way Willow.. and I wanna do your best to be there for you but.. I just feel like I haven't commited enough to my art. I just do Joke art, I don't actually know how good I am because I barely even draw seriously. The only way to improve is to give it your all. I just wanna focus on it, but i'll promise you it won't be a year.
If it makes you better I can talk to you on some days?
What's wrong buddy, you wanna vent? The only reason why people get hostile is because they have something they haven't been able to let out. So let's talk.
And she actually responded! Here i'll show you what she said so far
It's ok blue, you should let your anger out, it's human
Tell me about it... It's not just quarentine for me but...
It's not only what you said that made me sad... It's what I remembered..
Almost every friend I had... No matter what has slowly forgotten about me. And I just can't take it anymore. I try so hard to try to get back but just people end up going away. Irl friends, online friends. It's.. Really took a toll on how I see others... Just another Artificial insincere comment waiting to wane away just like any other.
And.. Believe me that's my mom and I too, she wants me to get angry.. And maybe I should.
I need to read more books, they say it helps when your sad
after watching some good minecraft videos and totally not laughing at a villager in a minecart falling into a hole that was covered by sand which collapsed and dying at the bottom, I feel better
I hate it when there's nobody around who knows you and when you try to talk to someone you don't know they immediately start listing off reasons why they hate you and why they don't want to talk to you. it's frustrating and tbh at times I want to jump off a cliff because I figure that nobody would care plus, my dead body would be a free meal for anyone who's hungry enough
honestly, sometimes I think that I might be the only person left alive by next year. I'm probably not wrong, Wyrmdrake is the lonely king after all. of course it's my fate to eventually be all alone.
but I won't forget you, even if I binge watch Mumbo Jumbo's redstone videos for five hours straight
yeah tbh I'm a chronic procrastinator and I really need to, y'know, shed that skin
I finally got my nintendo switch! yay! but I'm not playing on it. why? procrastination
and perhaps my nearly unshakable primal fear of screwing something up and feeling like a complete idiot
I really should train myself into doing things tbh. I'd be a lot cooler if I did
quarantine really do be thrashing me though, I realize that I spend too much time doing absolutely nothing when I could be doing way better. I could be productive! I could be doing a lot more digital drawing! but I don't. and I should. so I should tell myself to do that
but stress also plays a huge factor... stress does different things to different people and sometimes different levels can produce different results. sometimes I suddenly 'break down' because of it, sometimes I start being super productive... yeah, you know the drill.
Don't less stress tell you what you should do or not. You have to dig into your heart and go past the fear of failure. If we were to create perfect drawings, we'd slowly fall into a cesspool of what we call boredom. The same thing, sometimes we need failure to spice our lives. Remember, you only fail when you give up. It's just like when you play a game with someone and you fail, but you still get a few points? Why? Because you had the courage to try.
Don't tell yourself you should, ASSERT that you will. Trick your brain, try saying it's only 5 minutes and then you just get all into it.
Remember, no one would care about the LEANING tower of Piza if it was straight. No one would care about a story if it didn't have rising action. No one would care about your success if you didn't fail. And no one would care about life if it didn't have death.
In fact, I'm gonna draw right now! I suggest you flip that mobile or computer down and try as well! Put a timer for 20 minutes, and start drawing. You'll be surprised at how much more you want to draw.
music helps me be a bit more productive, but I realized that it also has a negative impact on me communication-wise. I get creativity and motivation which is a plus, but I also start getting snappy and that's an ew
my procrastination is biting my leg right now and it's unpleasant. I will draw. I've already tricked myself into thinking it's christmas, now it's time for me to trick myself into drawing
heck, I'll finish up those drawings I wanted to do of the Diamond faction! the Queen Monomonte will look stunning, I already have a good idea for Diamonte himself and those gosh darn Monomonts...
yeah I was thinking the same way, the diamonds do make her look more unique
why not show Haz the Official Render Of The Diamond Queen Monomonte? lmao
LOOK I CUT IT WHEN I WAS TAKING A BATH OK AND I WENT CRAZY WITH POWER LIKE I ALWAYS DO AND STARTED CUTTING IT UNCONTROLLABLY AND NOW IT LOOKS LIKE A RAT TRIED TO MAKE A NEST ON TOP OF MY HEAD AND DIED THERE
Verdalie screams and rushes to find the nearest bottle of Star Sauce and instead of drinking it she pours it over her eyes
except that kind of fails and it goes all over her face
YELLOW DIAMONDS IN THE LIIIIIIIIIIIGHT
tbh I like all the stylized Rulsees tho
so I had a really stupid AU idea for awhile and like Verdalie steals food from one or two people's houses and then there's widespread panic and rumours and stuff and people start thinking there's like a really huge snake going around eating people and wrecking stuff when in reality Verdalie's just chilling in someone's cupboard munching on cookies
yes, basically part 2 of Verdalie-somehow-ends-up-in-the-light-realm
I like to imagine that as soon as Rulsee invites Verdalie into a more domestic lifestyle Verdalie is immediately faced by the fact that she hasn't been properly educated and is unable to do basically anything that requires at the very least basic reading and/or math skills
Verdalie can only count up to about twenty but that's it
AND I REALLY LOVE HOW CUTE VERDALIE AND RULSEE ARE TOGETHER AAAA
wow your interpretation of Queen Verdalie's royal attire is actually really similar to what I imagined it to look like! according to one roleplay, "she now wore a green cloak which was lined at the edges with a thick layer of incredibly fuzzy white cloth and was adorned with small jewels."
but since I decided it would be canon that all the other Kings and Queens had died-- all deaths caused by the King of Spades, whether directly or not--, neither the King nor Queen of Diamonds' crowns could be retrieved, so Seam had to use his magic to alter the Spade King's crown so it would fit Queen Verdalie
And I know dude, I really want to have a drawing of rulsee reading a story while Verdalie has just fallen asleep on Rulsee's shoulders and Rulsee has just wrapped his scarf around her and placed pillows to keep her warm
yeah that's basically how it works! I need a place where I can easily store every single work of art containing Verdalie (and of course my other OCs) and it's quite difficult to do that here
so once I get toyhouse I'll link it to Verdalie's page (and vice versa)
major confession: I... how do I word this... as I've said before I LOVE Haz's art and I...... I kinda sorta want to commission her to draw Verdalie. but I don't really have a way to pay her and that's considering if she even has commissions open at all which she probably doesn't and I ugh...
but of course that isn't the only reason why I wanted you to talk to her >:( I actually do want to be her friend because she seems really nice but I sadly don't have discord (yet! my mom told me that she'll consider letting me have it if I come up with enough good reasons why I should have discord, but I had literally listed them all to her and therefore that means she's not interested in me getting it) so I can't talk to her myself
it's a shame because I'm sure she'd be interested in my Rudinn ecology headcanons
I ONLY OCCASIONALLY USE LINELESS AND WHEN I DO IT ALWAYS TURNS OUT REALLY GOOD FOR SOME REASON
idk what will happen with agrw because animal jam announced that the computer version is now going to be called 'classic' and there's a sudden increase in play wild players and roleplayers so is agrw going to die? I honestly don't care about that too much about agrw's state tbh but still I want to know what will happen
oh, same dude, same
boredom be hitting me like a truck rn
also did you complete the second and third parts of the challenge yet
They are! Though I am not much of a fan of minecraft nor many games
Also don't mind if I vent a bit
Why am I so forgettable? I know that people have things to do but when I talk to one person they forget to reply but with another person they continue talking and talking. Am I weird? Am I awkward to talk to? Is this a strange fate of mine to do something else than try to make friends. I don't know but i'm just so frustrated. Is it a social standard? Am I not cool enough? I don't care if i'm not cool enough because the phrase cool doesn't even exist out of the surface of society. No matter how hard I try I always end up being forgotten, and it makes me sad. So many people are easily able to make friends while i'm here being left in the dust.
I'm happy I got Joy, Buoy, Vel and you because even my once close friends have faded away. I don't understand, Do I have some sort of curse of vanishing on me that once you forget to talk to me I dissapear all at once? I don't know.
Even my drawings are forgettable, every time I draw something for someone they are NEVER posted in a gallery. The only time someone did is Germman and Yellowsnow who also faded away from me. Every other time my art is just as equal as a mosquito zipping in the air. You see it for a moment and then it's gone.
I'm tired of being tooken for granted i'm tired of my art being tooken for granted and i'm tired of being forgotten.
What am I doing wrong!
I'm sorry for venting, I just.. Don't know who else to turn to..
maybe you should get minecraft then (assuming that you don't already have it)? then we could... idk, play on a Realm or something together!
it seems that we've got the exact same problem, Bell
people tend to look down on others who, to them, seem "inferior". they're afraid of the different. we're both different, so people are naturally afraid of us. they pretend to be friendly to us and all but in reality they're scared, so they hate us.
of course, only true friends wouldn't judge others. and I'm one of them! (I mean maybe? I do hate some people... well then again, the only people I hate are the people that the vast majority of others openly hate, so there's not really anything special there)
there isn't really anything we can do about it, honestly. people will just be people. really the only thing that can be done is to try and make new friends, but sometimes that's impossible... like for me... gosh, I'm desperately trying to keep my existing friends from leaving me but suddenly I realize that that's kind of out of my control
that's why I wanna get toyhouse so I can display literally every single piece of art containing Verdalie there including my own nothing against you or me it's just that toyhouse's main purpose is to be a gallery and it's kind of hard to make a complete gallery on this platform
honestly while I don't really care that hardly anyone seems to appreciate my art because it's "not good enough" it kinda feels good y'know if people at least acknowledge it? especially my digital works. I spend so much time making those, constantly erasing and re-drawing and making painstaking edits to make the final product look amazing. people just dismiss it.
but hey, at least they don't go around and say that it's trash!
I do have minecraft, just neve play it cause got no one to play with :')
I love your art, it's so so so different. You don't draw stupid cats and you were the one to inspire me to take a step forward and be me
That's why I always give you so much support because I want you to know that you can be something amazing. And that's also something I hate, when someone shows a "average" piece of art someone is like "Oh it's cute!" but with someone else they go on saying how "OMG(gosh) IT'S AMAZING IT'S GORGEOUS" It feels so offensive, every art piece is a construction of one's self and all should be treated with the same respect.
And nah, I get it. We draw so much art for each other that it's best it's kept in a toyhouse
WELL THE FIRST ONE IS OBVIOUS. YOU HAVE TO MAKE A S***POST DRAWING (STUPID MEME AND DRAWN HORRIBLY). THE SECOND IS A STUPID SHIP OR JOKE (PREFERABLY SOMETHING MORE SUGGESTIVE OR JUST KINDA WEIRD LIKE VORE/GORE ETC). THE THIRD ONE IS FOR MEME VIDEOS (IN MY CASE, A GIF). THE FOURTH ONE IS A PURPOSEFUL TRASH DRAWING BUT IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE A MEME. WORTHLESS WEDNESDAY IS JUST A "WOAH THIS IS WORTHLESS" JOKE DAY BUT THANK GOODNESS THURSDAY IS WHEN WE ACTUALLY MAKE GOOD CONTENT. FREAKING FRIDAY IS JUST SORT OF A CHAOS CHAOS I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT DAY
TOGETHER WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS PANDEMIC WITH OUR NEW WEEAKLY CALENDAR
saturday is s***post day. poorly drawn memes/jokes that are funny because of how poorly made they are
sunday is the day when you can draw weird and slightly off-putting stuff (anything too gorey or NSFW has to be linked on discord with a warning)
monday is for memes. they don't have to be s***posts, but they have to be memes.
tuesday is for poorly drawn things. they don't have to be s***posts, but they have to be poorly drawn.
wednesday is sort of a rant/vent day? no, I'm not saying you have to post bad jokes, but it's sort of a day to make vent art about things (in my case, since the economy where I live is really stupid, I can make vent art about how people who are millionaires are considered middle class here)
thursday is for posting works you worked hard on and are genuinely proud of! it's kind of an appreciation day.
friday is the day where you can do whatever you want, but it's also an optional day.
keep in mind that none of these need to be drawn/made on those days, but they should be posted on those days
this is to help with art block and also a little project to help us stay sane in these wild times :)
I MIGHT MAKE THIS A BLOGPOST AND MAKE IT A (OPTIONAL) WIKI-WIDE PROJECT
So... I doodling Jamesstar because I wanted to make my own design for the guy and I got something I really like
I have been improving in draw8ng oriental shorthairs
The anatomy is a kinda clunky, i'm not good at measuring distances & also the front legs are not exactly as the reference and feel a bit stiff the eyes are pretty symmetrical but one is bigger than the other, and the bend within the back leg is way too long, but practice! but little by little. This was so that I could get an idea for the character, and now I really got one
well I mean since they were actually captured from the wild after both their parents mysteriously vanished nobody knows
we're suspecting oriential/siamese x british shorthair
Tradertrail (more commonly known by his rogue name Doran) was my final cat OC who was based off the wandering trader
I mean the name is the only similarity
I don't remember the plot of it
but I do know that the hammy boy here is kind of like Ralsei because he believes that one day there will be a newcomer to the Nether who will free all the Piglins from their Nether prison and take them to the "Aether", a fabled land where everything is bright and green and with an "endless ceiling"
no, I never get headaches but I do have ringing in my ear lots of times
I have been very very stressed out this week due to work and have been getting sad a lot lately. Usually when I get very stressed I guess I produce a lot of hormones that kinda work a lot and then once it's over I guess it's like having a hangover.
maybe... idk, you should try taking a break from schoolwork
I know it kind of sounds crazy and you're probably thinking that it'd make you seem selfish or like a quitter. but from as far as I can tell it seems that it's the schoolwork that's really draining you
just 24 hours of not doing work will help! I know that I'm the lazy procrastinator but I've witnessed things happen to other people so I have a pretty good idea of how it all works
You're right, even my mom gets worried but I just don't know how to take a break. I always feel like I haven't done enough and when I finish a break I'll have to do a hustle to finish all the extra work. But if I don't I'll fall into the same inevitable fate that is crunching hours, I need to find a life/work balance. I just don't know how.
I'm sure your teacher/s will understand! my English teacher sure did, because my mom was making me go on walks and stuff for a while last week and I had to miss a few meetings
I've always been told that life matters before everything. you don't need to write a long paragraph or anything, just tell your teachers that you need to take a brief break and then you'll be up and running in no time!
honestly I should be doing my schoolwork so my English teacher doesn't get annoyed with me but ahem I am the lazy procrastinator and that's kinda sorta a whole 'nother story :')
Today I just relaxed and doodled a new character of mine named Tornpaw/Leaf
I was just doodling really I was bored and I did this, I actually got the proportions really good. The only problem is the face being a bit skewed and the belly being too long but that's it!! Otherwise it would've been anatomily accurate!
Now this is my first time actually trying in digital art so yeah it's bad
don't worry all those black markings on the fur is gonna change i'm gonna recover them.
I love realistic styles.. It's so much fun seeing how it comes to life and I've always had so many ideas in my head but I've always stifled them telling myself (I'll do it when I get better) but I'll only be able to get better by doing those ideas! This is just a starting practice to practice on fur but I was doing the eyes.
I actually got pretty close to doing the eye gradient well!! The only thing that's sloppy is the teardrops that look out of place a bit but it's ok!
Dude no!!! The only reason why it may be better is because I am trying realistic, I use a lot lot of reference so i'm definitely no Kim Jung gi. If you really wanna get better at digital art, I suggest you look at a lot lot of speedpaints. I like looking at realistic speedpaints and you really learn!! Or just take reference. That's the best way to improve!
I either use too many references or none at all, but I must admit that when I drew Monomonte that was the first time I'd actually used a 'blind reference', just looking at the reference once or twice instead of it being right next to the drawing and going along mostly based off memory.
but yeah, the Taurean is easily my best work so far, with Monomonte scoring second, and the Strider scoring third (for the Strider, I just went almost completely from memory but while still using the correct palette)
No, we never did. Maybe it's for the better I just hope they're okay..
Maybe it's for the better I was busy with him and school so I could never draw, maybe this is god's way of helping me to get my dream. But even if it is and even if it had to be done, even if he stressed me out, I still had love for him. Not hearing his cheerful tweets fill the kitchen room feels like something is missing, like a frame in a picture piece is out of place.
We always have this thing with loosing birds, most flying away and some died (rest in peace peepo the baby blue jay and my 3 little chicks) the majority having escaped to my dad. I'm not mad at him for letting him escape, though it was his fault how could he have known. I'm just sad, trying to cheer myself up.
don't feel pressured to stick to a certain style, though! being "good" doesn't mean being realistic. some people really like cartoony or exaggerated drawings, others like more stylized or abstract drawings, and others like realistic!
don't restrain yourself is what I'm saying.
like my new lineless/coloured lines style for example, it's really fun but I still will use black lines!
the old posture was cute n all but I found that they started looking more like tiny Dalamadurs than Rudinns (they have arms after all, not forelegs!) and as much as I liked it,,, I knew something was off
it's actually kind of fun drawing them upright like king cobras, though! plus with the new posture they look more like snakes and less like slugs which in my headcanon they're more snakelike than sluglike so I finally got the look that I was going for
but Verdalie will retain the old posture when she's (very) tired, so it won't completely disappear!
also I kept waking up last night because earlier yesterday we ran out of lactose free milk and I had to drink normal milk instead and the stomachache I got was so bad that I kept waking up and I still have it now smh
I keep drawing Rubellie... except the entire content is just her dismissing her binge eating disorder and pretending like it's not obvious at all. nope. she totally isn't like FRICKIN CHUBBY or whatever and she's totally not literally eating her paycheck
can't help but feel bad for her, even if she insists that she's fine and has everything "under control"
once I draw something not so discomforting I'll show you